He looked up at me,
Not with sorrow or shame,
Rather a coward looking for yet another way,
To run, to blame and discard me again.
An unforgettable sunset,
That final red blaze,
Our last dance on sea sand,
The sorrow comes in waves.
He moved so gently,
Feeling the rhythm deep down in his soul,
The confidence to dance alone,
I fell in love with him once more.
I knew he wanted nothing more than to touch me,
His body easing closer and closer to mine,
I took a step back and pretended I was fine,
My body longed for his embrace but I had to fight it this
time.
He hugs me and I know it’s the final goodbye,
His body molding into mine,
I have to keep my guard up or my soul might never recover,
Letting go of what was supposed to be forever with my lover.
I’ll never forget the waves of emotion,
Uttering a final “Goodnight”,
Watching him drive into the darkness of the jungle,
He wasn’t aware that I was dying inside.
I could have let him touch me,
I could have kissed him goodbye,
I could have fallen into his arms again,
Honestly I couldn’t, finally I couldn’t and I now know why.
Looking back I’m glad I didn’t try and give him a reason to
stay,
I could no longer live that way, I could no longer bare the
pain,
Of being discarded again and again and again,
Refusing to be another pawn in his narcissistic game.
When I was finally done,
When I knew there was nothing in my power that I could do,
When I knew he would never stop lying or cheating or
emotionally abusing,
That’s when I found the power to walk away from him,
And if you should do the same I’ll surely walk away from
you.
