I spent 18 months waiting for you,
Waiting for you to choose me,
To choose us,
You were never going to.
Night after night,
The extreme torture if being discarded again and again,
Begging you to prioritize me,
You were never going to.
Hours and hours of therapy,
Couples coucellors and trauma specialists,
Desperate for you to see me,
You were never going to.
Throwing myself into you completely,
Rearranging my entire life for you,
Wanting commitment from you,
You were never going to.
You still don't seem to notice,
Like you've lost nothing, nothing at all,
If only you could see my worth,
You were never going to.
My soul has craved you in ways I cannot express just yet,
Nothing but the whore from which you so easily moved on,
I wanted you to love me the way I loved you,
You were never going to.
I sometimes fantasize,
That you'll finally realize,
But,
You are never going to.
