There is nothing left to say,
Nothing left to do,
A feeling of nothing,
Even when I do think of you.
There is no closure needed,
No final conversation necessary,
My silence is intentionally deafening,
Potentially because you were never really listening.
I'm not angry,
Not hurting,
Not self loathing,
I'm living.
There is nothing that could change my mind,
Nothing you could say or do to make me feel anything for you,
I am instead really grateful for the experience I had with you,
You were the fire that could have destroyed me, but you forged me instead.
I could have been stuck in my trauma forever,
I may have never realised my full potential if it wasn't for you,
I may never have become the mother I am now if you hadn't pushed me to my edge,
Learning to love myself despite you means I can be a safe space for my son.
You were the greatest things to happen to me,
And so I feel nothing,
Nothing for you,
Nothing, but gratitude.
Thank you for teaching me,
As painful as it was,
I am now ready for the love I deserve,
Ready for the greatest love of all.
I think I finally see,
You were nothing more than a stepping stone in my journey,
So I could heal the unhealed parts of me,
So he could love me wholly.
