Deep down in my soul,
I knew you could not change,
But my foolishness led me to believe,
You might just be the one for me.
I truly believe,
If you’d stuck it out with me,
You might have finally been free,
Free from,
Your demons,
Your ego,
And your insecurities.
My internal being,
In my precious little soul,
I knew you’d leave me once more,
This I actively chose to ignore.
I can’t even be angry at you,
In the end it’s my responsibility,
To listen to my inner voice,
That internal queen.
Such self ignorance,
Such foolishness,
Utter stupidity,
An active choice to believe,
That just maybe,
You’d want me enough,
To stay with me.
This feeling of rejection,
I’ve felt so many times before,
My low self-esteem the cause of it all,
Picking myself off the ground once more.
I’m going to rehabilitate,
Free myself of this addiction,
Thailand,
Miles and miles of distance,
Should cleans me of this affliction,
This,
Abused woman syndrome.
Never in my life have I met someone so cruel yet so kind,
Bipolar personalities that chop and change,
From depression and cruelty,
To the deepest beauty I have ever seen.
I will somehow heal,
Finally grow,
Into the secure woman I have yet to know,
It’s actually a blessing that you’ve discarded me.
Travelling far far away,
Will certainly set me free,
Knowing,
You can’t come back to ruin me.
