Unfathomable

Tucking my head into the sweet scent of your neck,

The feeling of fingertips on my back,

The warmth of your skin in contrast to the icy wind,

These are the things I will never forget.

Skinny dipping in moonlight,

Dressing Oysters before midnight,

Flavours of fantasy as I crave to have you near me,

Undeniable intensity limited by responsibility.

Getting caught making out,

Laughing till our bellies hurt,

Blushing like teenagers,

That’s what life should be like.

The anxiety of separation,

The space between,

Somehow we’ve managed to keep it all in,

A whole year of wishing, wanting and longing.

Your kindness and patience as I travel the world,

Your complete understanding,

Your genuine want to protect me,

Understanding that he flew to Thailand simply to break me.

Somehow I cannot fathom,

This connection that’s beyond explanation,

This feeling of complete understanding,

Old souls reconnecting?

Thank you for your constant admiration,

Your encouragement and patience,

Your respect and chivalry,

It all means the world to me.

Live and be Alive

I’ll show you the world in all its glory,

I’ll take you on adventures that will forever haunt your memories,

I’ll hold you in the ocean so you can feel both safe and free,

I’ll always be your once upon a time memory.

He offered me adventure,

He lay with me at night,

He showed me stars I had not seen,

He made me feel supreme.

An unfamiliar touch,

A tingle down my spine,

A brief moment of guilt,

Thinking you were still mine.

I longed to let go,

I wanted to forget,

Amnesia at its best,

Oblivious of your existence.

Weightless in his embrace,

I feel so powerful yet so helpless,

A fleeting moment to second guess,

It’s too late now he’s breathing me in.

Such sweet release,

Followed by such pain,

My soul being ripped apart,

I half whisper your name.

Regret

I’m the sunset that brings slight sorrow,

I’m that memory that haunts,

I’m that hunger unquenchable,

I’m that throbbing in your heart.

It will get easier over time,

To live without me,

Without a connection to the divine,

Some part of you will always be mine.

You’ll think of me less and less,

You will never be able to forget,

You’ll never really not regret,

Letting go of the best you’ve ever met.

One day you will be old,

Looking back on your life,

I’ll always be the one,

You'd wished you'd treated right.

There will never be a touch more intimate,

A look more inspiring,

Two souls intertwining,

 When you do look back, remember that.

Scorpion Fish

So beautiful,
Exquisite even,
Charming and manipulative,
Deadly yet addictive.

So delicate,
Spines like fine glass,
Fans like the thinnest silk,
Delicate enough to pierce through your heart.

Red like anger,
White like light,
The dichotomy of it all,
To be in awe of something so poisonous.

It takes knowledge,
Awareness too,
To spot a Scorpion Fish,
Before it kills you.

You need to be able to see,
Spot and identify,
Colors, markings and personality traits,
To avoid making a dangerous mistake.

I know it's not easy,
To not become obsessed,
To not fall in love,
With such magnificent narcissists.